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Urgent Rest

Urgent Rest

Urgency has always been my normal. I could never understand people who would “do things later”.  I would push myself to the point of burnout and then shut down for days at a time. Even during those times of doing nothing, I couldn’t relax because I was too busy feeling guilty for not being productive. 

Maybe you noticed, maybe you didn’t. Either way, that’s okay. 

I needed to take a break from death. While I couldn’t take a break from the part of it that paid my bills, stepping back from the extracurriculars made sense to me. I love sharing my experiences, and exposing people to a side of this world that they otherwise wouldn’t know existed. It was a release for me.

Lately, instead of feeling a sense of release, this began to feel like a chore. 

So I took a break. I took a break and I made some adjustments. 

I stopped being the first one in the office and the last one out. I thought it would have made more of a difference to the people around me, but it didn’t. 

I started to spend more time feeding the relationships that fed me. Making myself more accessible to the people who I felt deserved it, and restricting access to those who I found draining. 

I enforced my boundaries, and poured into those who poured into me. 

I went swimming with my dog and played fetch with my cat (yes, you read that correctly). 

Most importantly, I started saying no. 

My productivity didn’t suffer, and I was rested. I began to greet each day with gratitude. 

It’s been a weird year, and I don’t see things getting any better for a while, but I do feel far more equipped to take on whatever is next.

It’s okay to slow down. It’s important to rest. Take time to recharge. 

It feels good to be back. 

Negotiating with Terrorists

Negotiating with Terrorists

For You, Black Man

For You, Black Man

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